I have been thinking a lot lately about our connectedness to others. How we are all connected by our breath and how each of us our teachers for those around us as they are for us. I have also been thinking quite a bit lately about how far I have come in my life and how it is that I got here.
Many years ago I was introduced to a 12 step program that saved my life. I have drifted away from that program over the last few years as I am a mom of a very busy little boy. Lately I have been missing the fellowship that that program offered to me. Although it has been many many years since I last used my medicine of choice to ease my pain…….actually it ended up creating a lot more pain for me in the long run. Anyway, I have been thinking of who and what I am and how I got here. I am incredibly grateful to those who lead the way for me. I know without a doubt that I wouldn’t be where I am today if it wasn’t for the 12 steps and the people who loved me when I was unable to love myself. I did a lot of growing up working the 12 steps and sharing with others who are very much like myself. I have really missed the fellowship. So, I went to the place where it all began for me over 16 years ago when I was just a young woman of 24.
Service is a big part of my recovery and activity is the key to sobriety.
I have missed sharing the journey with others as we work to overcome ourselves and our emotions. Our false selves – EGO. It is only by giving that we receive. Stepping out of and away from our limiting beliefs about ourselves.
Sharing with and caring about others.
This is my path. This is my life. Living and growing in the light. In love.
No more fight. All battles are fought in our hearts. All battles are won with love. There is nothing else.
Drop the ego and be real.
Isn’t love all that any of us are searching for, although misguided at times? Aren’t we all just looking for love, understanding and acceptance? Safe in the knowledge that we are good enough. A divine child of GOD. LOVE.
All that we need is always available to us. All we need to do is seek. Reach out and accept the help and support that is ours. Right there in front of us. If only we just have the courage to ask, believe and then receive.
With an open mind and heart I will continue to blossom and evolve into the spiritual being I know that I am. I am so very grateful to so many people and unseen but felt powers for the many gifts in my life. Although it has been many years since I have felt the need to self medicate I must remember who and what I am and how I became the woman that I am today. I have no doubt that I wouldn’t be sitting here today if it wasn’t for the above mentioned people or the 12 steps which have provided me with a blueprint for living. They really helped me to overcome myself and helped me to accept and love myself as I am today. With the promise that if I continue to seek I will continue to grow and blossom. I like to think of the story of the lotus flower.
Click here to read my friends writings about the lotus..
http://www.melissawest.com/blog/2011/5/9/yoga-stories-the-lotus-flower.html
So for that and so much more I am eternally grateful and my heart is overflowing with love and gratitude.
Namaste.
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